iim heading to get xmas gift wrappers to wrap aunt rosies early xmas presents.

it should be fun but its not... because this means she may not be here with us for christmas ...

its beyond our hands.. stage 4 cancer isnt a joke nor are we treating it that way,, we'll miss her and at first i was in denial but theres no time to lose.......... i love her and always will

p.s.

i miss my grandpa's Jose Reyes & Jose Duaqui

  My LOLO,

You will always be loved

and

remembered!

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I have so much anger in me. I think I'm guno burst! I wana bash my head into the wall, and or scream until my eyes, ears, nose, mouth are bleeding. I don't know how to calm myself. Everything just goes wrong. There's no day where everything goes out fine.. Not once, there's no such thing as a perfect day. And there'll never be one. I'm so naive for even thinking that there was one. I'm such an idiot. It's my moms birthday and we lost my grandpa, what a pleasant gift... Actually, to think of it, my grandpa is in a better place. He's resting well, and he's not hurting anymore. I'm kind of glad that I wasn't there to see him go. I've seen so many people die infront of me, I'd love to sleep every night not seeing my Lolo go. It leaves it fresh in my memory him being lively. My memory of him will be of good ones. It just seems like he's somewhere for a vacation, in which he is. He's the best place to be in:: HEAVEN. I'm glad im writing this. It's take a lot of tension out of me. Though after a few seconds I'm in pain again. I don't know how to comfort myself. It's just a horrible feeling. I just wana lock myself away somewhere at this moment. Maybe I need a day for myself.......................................................................................................

Its our 1month wedding anniversary!

My baby had a surprise for me....

and i LOVED it!

Guess what,,,, RESIDENT EVIL: EXTINCTION

was the BOMB!

You guys have to watch it, it was an awesome movie.. i love nachos & cheese but I couldnt eat it, it went to waste Resident Evil was fucking awesome!!! That I forgot about my favorite NACHOS!!!!!!!! lol

THANK YOU BABY!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU

P.S.

He was sick yet, he was still able to take me out and have fun with me!